Friday, July 11, 2008

Hot or Not?

The past few days have been forecast to be hot in the City, but while the heat stayed in the high 90s and even surpassed the 100s around the Bay Area, in my City it's breezy and not even in the 80s. Yet, I find it so amazing how one area of the City can have sun while the other half is draped with fog! Just a mystery that I love to explore and even more in viewing!

I had a nice foto shoot in Half Moon Bay during the last weekend, where I met with a Chico teen model and shot with her. It's sad and disappointing to think that in such a populous area as is San Francisco, I can't find a real and serious "model" to work with. The few models there are seem to be immature and even more irresponsible, expressing a fleeting desire to work and saying a quick "hi" then disappearing faster than this fog that rolls in at night. All of the real models I have worked with have all been from outside the City.

In the past few days the winds have yet again shifted, allowing us to be smoked everyday with the gray haze ~ a result of smoke from the 300+ fires all over California. Health advisories have been issued and in a town north of my City near Chico named Paradise (Butte County), it was reported yesterday that the health issue due to the thick smoke was so bad that even the machine used to measure the air particles for these advisories, broke and had to be restarted and the measurements obtained manually!

Here's a picture from my rooftop this morning.... it shows an orange sun rising over the East Bay and Telegraph Hill.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Toleration and Respect...

... and I am the one who tolerates a LOT. My years in Spain has taught me patience, patience and a bit more patience. In my few months in San Francisco, I have put up with a lot to which I seemingly have gained no respect, appreciation or even praise. It seems to be all taken for granted, and someone somewhere is happy it is I doing the work, moving heavy boxes up and down the stairs, and me cleaning through the mountains of dust and not them.

Or does anyone care at all?

One can tolerate so much, and even the most tolerant will see when things appear to be worst and not better, then for the sake of all, it must come to an end. So, during the next few weeks before driving to Eugene again for a friend's wedding, I will start packing my own things for a change, and moving these items to the garage where hopefully these will be safe while I settle somewhere else. Maybe I'll hit the lottery and will be able to ship my things to Spain but right now don't have the funds to get a place of my own, and I've learned decades ago the car is not comfortable - but if I need to, I'll sleep in the car again.

So, again.... I thought of spending the money to have a new business card printed, and sure enough.... it appears I might be moving yet again! While in Eugene, I had a total of five cards made, each card due to a change of information or a move, each one now displaying old outdated information.

So it's back to the norm: once again it seems I have NO idea if I should stay or leave, and if I were to leave, where I would go nor for how long, but at least I can sleep nights knowing I can be respected and appreciated for who I am.

So, I guess the question here is should I turn a deaf ear or should I keep my chin up and forgive. I am not in a situation to move yet again - now three times in the past two years from Spain to Oregon to San Francisco - and allow destiny to have a gentler hand in my future? As the past has proven, things will probably occur again which creates my torturous existence... who knows what the future brings?